Babies

I have 2 kids. I've always wanted 3 kids. In May 2008 I found out I was pregnant with my third, July 7, 2008 I had a miscarriage. It was a week and a half after my Dad died. It took me months to forgive myself. I kept thinking that it was my fault, my body did something wrong. I thought that I would never had another baby, it just wasn't in Gods' plans for us. While I was at my Grannys' funeral I saw a newborn. My cousins wife had a baby girl. Our babies were due a day apart. I couldn't help but think that my baby would be the same age as her baby girl. It was more painful than I could imagine. I want to hold a baby and smell it and hear those little noises that newborns make. I have this nagging feeling that my family isn't complete. Here's the problem...My husband doesn't want another baby. Actually he says he's on the fence. He knows how I feel and I know how he feels so now what do we do? If I don't have another child will I always regret it and end up resenting him in 5 years? If we have another child will he end up resenting me in 5 years? I don't know what the answer is. I'm going to pray alot and I'm going to try and let it go, things will work out the way they were meant to.