Sleep over guest

Alex had a friend sleep over last night. It's only the second time she's had a friend sleep over. The first time didn't go so well. The other girl woke me up around 3am throwing up in the middle of my living room floor. That was 10 months ago. You can understand why it took me so long to let her come back.

The girls had a good time playing and Jude of course ended up sleeping in our bed. It was the only way I could keep him away from the girls. He wanted to play with the girls so badly, I almost felt bad for him.

Good times were had by all though.

Hello Again

So I haven't posted in a long time because, well, no one really reads my blog anyway.

I'm 29 weeks pregnant now and it's been a bad, bad week. I found out this week that after the baby is born I won't have a job to go back to. Now, I only work 3 days a week but it's all the extra money that we have. The company I work for has less than 50 employees so legally I guess there's nothing I can do. They told me I'm a great worker, very professional, and loyal to the company but they can't hold my position for that long. Mind you I was only planning on taking 12 weeks off, unpaid. They did say that when I'm ready to come back to work call them and if they have a position open they'll bring me back. That's not a guarantee.

A couple of weeks ago I was discussing this situation with my immediate supervisor (before I knew they wouldn't let me come back) and she asked me what my plans were, as if it were up to me. We talked about both options, coming back or not coming back and she said that the problem was that I was asking for all this time off. Really?!? I'm having a baby, not taking a cruise!! Then she said they wanted someone full time for the position so he/she could help out the scheduler and I offered to work more for them and it still wasn't good enough. I was really looking forward to the extra money before the baby came and they added duties would be a little more challenging. My position now is really pretty dull.

So the day I was told I wouldn't be allowed to come back to my current position she asked me to write the ad for them to place online. I said no but ended up helping her anyway. Management keeps telling me that they want to hire someone this month and give me the month of May to train him/her and then they'll find "projects" for me to work on in June until the baby is born.

The only thing I can say right now is this. When they find my replacement and IF they pay him/her more than I'm making I'm done. Immediately.

Baby Bennett

I'm pregnant.

I feel weird even saying it. After everything we've been through saying it makes it more real. I'm 19 weeks and we've had 2 ultrasounds. We've heard the heartbeat a handful of times. I feel the baby move everyday.

When will I stop worrying????

Alex & the glasses

My daughter picked up a pair of fake eye glasses at Claires about a year or so ago. She picked up a second pair a few months ago and has been asking to wear them everywhere. Most recently she wanted to wear them to school. I said absolutely not but if you promise not to wear them in class you can take them to school and put them on afterward. Two days ago she came home telling me that her eyesight has gotten worse and the only thing that helps her are her "glasses". I've tried explaining to her that those glasses do nothing for her vision. I thought I had finally gotten my point across.

I spoke with Alexs' teacher today and she asked me when Alex needed her glasses and why I wouldn't let her wear them at school. WHAT?!?!?

After a brief explanation of the real reason Alex has the "glasses" her teacher realized that Alex had been trying to pull a fast one on her. As soon as I saw Alex I told her that her teacher had mentioned the glasses and she said "Uh Oh".

Can't blame a girl for trying!

Preschool?!?

When I had my 2nd ultrasound with Jude they told me they found signs of down syndrome. Needless to say we were devastated. I had some blood work done and it came back normal. OK I though, we're in the clear. My OB said "No, I still think you should see a specialist." Damn. Two weeks later we went to see the specialist. The tech did an ultrasound and asked why we were even there. The Dr. came in and agreed with our original ultrasound, there were markers. Then he found more. Damn. He took us to another room and ran down the statistics, I'm telling you it was more confusing than buying our house.
We decided not to have an amnio. The chances of having a miscarriage because of the amnio were higher than our chances of having a baby with downs based on our age/history. My OB said that if he had it or not it wouldn't change anything about the delivery.
We waited 5 months to find out if he was healthy.
May 25, 2006 we went into the hospital to be induced. Apparently Jude was a big boy and the Dr. was afraid he might be too big. That thought alone made me happy. Generally speaking babies with Downs are small, I rationalized that if he was big it was a good sign.
I pushed for 20 minutes and he was out, they put him on my stomach and I looked down into those big dark blue eyes and he smiled at me.
It was one of the most beautiful moments of my life.
OK maybe he didn't smile but he wasnt crying and he just looked at me and it was like he was looking deep into my soul and I could see right away that he was perfect.
The 5 months that we were waiting I never prayed for him to be healthy, I prayed that I would be the best mother that he needed.

Tuesday my baby started preschool.

My heart is full.

Newsworthy

I like to turn on the Today Show right at 7am and listen to the headline news. I usually only get abut 10 or 15 minutes of news before the kids get up and then I get busy and don't really pay attention anymore. Before I say what my point is I want to clarify that I love celebrity gossip. I can't help myself, I just do. However, sometimes I just get sick of hearing about something/someone. I also can NOT STAND when celebrities get all preachy. I mean just because you have more money and a venue for publicly stating your opinions does not make them better than mine or anyone else's. I don't like it when celebrities endorse someone for political office because I think nothing beats good old fashion research of my own and then forming my OWN opinion.

Back to my point. The headlines this morning on the Today Show were....

The mother of that was driving the wrong way on the highway and killed 8 people.
The plane that crashed with a helicopter and killed 5 people.
AND
Kate from Jon & Kate Plus 8 - how is she coping since the separation and why she is still wearing her wedding ring.

SERIOUSLY?!?!

Do we think these things even compare?!?!?

I mean the first 2 are without doubt tragedies, for everyone involved and Kate is a fame seeking, money hungry mother of 8 that is now like thousands of other women in the world, except she gets to work from home and hire nannies and cleaning people.

I actually watched the show in the beginning and thought the kids were cute and blah blah blah but then a few episodes later I realized that there is no way a family of 10 could afford to do all the things they were doing. It was not a reality show about a family, it was about a family with a reality show. That's not my line, I heard that somewhere but think it's true.

I'm off my soapbox now and I'm going to watch Dating in the Dark!

Happy Father's Day.

Happy Father's Day to my Dad...I miss you more than I can ever put into words.

Happy Father's Day to my husband...You inspire me to be a better Mother.
Thank you for asking how I was feeling today.